Christmas Cookies

I am truly an extrovert. However, I function very independently and very much on my own. While I do deeply enjoy the peace and quietness, too much time on my own and I find that I begin to lose a little bit of myself. I doubt me. I second guess and speak discouragingly to myself.

For months, I have felt uncomfortable around people...wondering what they are thinking of me...seeing my every word as idiotic. But that isn't me...I love engaging in people. Not thinking about me but thinking about them. Enjoying what they bring to the conversation...which in turns frees me to bring myself to the table.

Lately, I have felt myself reconnecting with my true self. I feel more comfortable with who I am again...

I decided I would start off the Christmas style with others in mind. So, my roommate and I made cookies. We made 7 dozen sugar cookies covered with cream cheese frosting and colorful sprinkles...they shown with joy as we placed them on Christmas green plastic plates. Then after the Colts amazing football game...we crossed the street and handed cookies to the neighbors.

The conversations were short and pleasant...but the smiles that came across their face was tender. It wasn't some amazing act of kindness. It was just a simple gift that said...we were thinking of you.

But I think the true blessing and energy was for me. I did something intentional for someone else who never expected it and got to simply enjoy the process.